We are a stress case. We have more stimulation then ever. More noise, more lights, more motion infront of our face. We are more fed, less nourished and mostly mis in formed. We are rich in all we have but everyone is poor by social standards. We are knowledgeable of such profound understanding of the working of the universe but so utter ignorant out of shape to the inner workings of love, peace or faith.
This, and a bunch of other things that I could go on about, makes any sane person anxious, depressed or angry. Most people I meet struggle with these issues. I work at a mental hospital that has a great deal of labels of depression or anxiety. Maybe we alsways felt this way as a species.... I dont think so.
I think we are getting tired. Which is a good sign. Might be the start of a change. I know it was for me.
"Life sucks"
"Life is too much, holly shit it is too much"
then is went to
"Life sucks, Im tired of being stressed out."
then my head echoed
"You know what. I have had it, I quit, I give up. Im going to kill myself if I keep living this way. So before I leave this world I am going to start to do what I want. A farewell party"
Then i had the conversation of
"Well what do I want to do then? What do I really want to do.... I want to be in love. Check. I want to be loved. Check. I want to have more free time. Check. I want to be challenged with something I love..... Check....."
Now I hear
"Holly shit, this is fun. I no longer think about what others think, I just manifest. WHy not. I am going to manifest a great life. A fuckign great life..... Here I go...... "
I am not naive. It is a lot of work. I still feel like shit most days. But i have learned to appreciate what I have created. What I do have. Give voice to the yesses and less to the nos.
I am starting to recognize that happiness is not in habits of what we do, but in how well we practice appreciation.
I practice appreciation.
and I appreciate you taking the time to read this post.